Darkened Soul Poem - Bad Break Up - Poetry

OK, so I thought I wouldn't be writing many poems but here I am with my second piece and I guess it was because I found it a nice outlet for my feelings and to get a response was nice too.

Once again please ignore the sub titles because I just used them to gain recognition from search engines but thinking about it another way could be the fact that after losing someone you love you constantly get one liner advice from friends like 'you'll cope' or 'you need to move on' which doesn't really help that much, so in a way they could be considered part of the poem.

I am writing this poem at the risk of sounding 'Emo', for those who are too old to know this is a youth fashion of which I am not part of which basically involves dressing with eccentric make-up, acting like you have everything to be depressed about and talking about teenage 'heart-breaks'. However I can tell you my heartache was real, full of grief and a burden to my everyday life..I have also experienced losing family members so I know the meaning of the words. I tried to make the poem alive with imagery as usual, a lot the pictures reminded me of the colorful artwork on Tools album covers, mainly the above heart, the symmetrical figures and the eerie wig pincher picture below.

Photo by oedipusphinx

As I began to realize I'd lost your trust, my heart crumbled as you slipped from my clutch

What did I do which was so bad to warrant such a cold front?

I felt the the door slam closed and lock behind as my heart thumped

All that is left is this thick black impenetrable guard

                                                                                                    Photo by hectorius

Left to my own therapy, either the pen or brush pressing rigourously

Feeling misunderstood, treated unfairly, I will break free

One day you'll see the real me or part at least

Nobody will truly understand where you find your peace

                                                                                      Photo by technicolorrain

I remember where it all went wrong, walking those cold cobbled city streets

I called out to you but could no longer reach

You didn't know me anymore, that's how it came across

If only I could send my feelings across

                                                                                                     Photo by Niffty..

That is the problem, you think I'm dumb

If you only knew I'd just begun, no you'd rather make fun

Go ahead, run! Have your fun!

You'll never know how much this stung

There's two sides to my being, the side which creates and the side that's seeing.

                                                                                        Photo by buchelligiordano

Left in this distortion yet again, your harsh words ring on

My thoughts condensed into a 'hang on, just try to hang on'

Left to their pinchers with no beauty left in sight

Scuttling, grasping to gain height, so ready to take flight

                                                                                            Photo by hmk

Now that its almost over, 4 years to escape you hovering over me

The haunting was what was most daunting

Fearing you'll be back makes me more black

Protecting my soul with every step, even the strongest can be inept.

                                                                                            Photo by howieluvzus